Finding happiness in the darkest of places

I got my class assignments done (one was late, whatever, it’s done now).  I went to a friend’s house show and hung out all day, which was nice.  I actually socialized with people and things, so that was new and exciting.  Wore my Cheer Up Clothing tank again because it’s sooooo soft and comfy.  Tolerated heat pretty well outdoors for six hours, which looks promising for Warped.

Going to Java tomorrow to hang out with Anna and watch a gentleman make jokes about handjobs.  Have a place to sleep for Field Day now, which is pretty ace.

I still need to write my reviews for RVA magazine, and I need to photoedit because I’m getting behind again.

I was going to try to go to sleep so I could wake up at a reasonable hour tomorrow and do things, but then I started browsing the Max Helyer tag, and the kid is freaking adorable.

Anyway, I’m going to turn on McTrusty’s Walking in Memphis cover and go to sleep.

I’ll probably just go to Java early tomorrow because I’m far more able to be productive there.

I was in a pretty blah mood, then I found this when I was looking for the Cry Me a River cover.

What.  What are you even?  I can’t.  I do not know how to react to this.  

I love this band so much.

Matt Bomer playing a stripper is like a gift from god you do not turn that down

Truth.

gotmagicwithoutwands:

Remember when I said I will pay money to see truly bad movies on the condition that Alex Pettyfer is in them?

I’ve come to the conclusion that the amount of stupid I will tolerate is inversely proportionate to the amount of clothing that Pettyfer is wearing.

So movie…

So we should all go together, yes?  I think yes.

Remember when I said I will pay money to see truly bad movies on the condition that Alex Pettyfer is in them?

I’ve come to the conclusion that the amount of stupid I will tolerate is inversely proportionate to the amount of clothing that Pettyfer is wearing.  

So movie where Pettyfer is a stripper?  Yeah.  Going to see it, regardless of the fact that it also features Matthew McConaughey as a stripper.  

interplanetarybordello:

tieknots:

Tim Burtonned HG Characters

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THE DRESS KATNISS IS WEARING IS PERFECTION

Yes, yes.  This is good.

(via lunastellaris)

lunastellaris said: The good news is that you are not stupid or useless; you are, in fact, the complete opposite. I wish I could do something to help. <3

Thanks, I appreciate that.  I know none of it is true, but that’s generally how verbal abuse goes.  It’s all bullshit but it’s used violently.  I’m not dealing with it.  I’m just scared for my niece.  I don’t want her to have to go through what I’ve gone through.

I’m trying to take my niece to a friend’s daughter birthday tomorrow.  My brother is being a total jackass about it.  He’s been yelling and screaming at me about everything any time I try to ask what plans are.  I asked if he wanted me to meet him over closer to where he is to make it easier for him, and he said no.  I told him I would be trying to pick her up around 11:30 and asked if tat was okay, and he told me to leave him alone.

I am so tired of this.  I’m tired of him demanding I change his daughter’s diapers whenever I’m there or feed her or get her bottle, but when I want to do one thing with her, he has “plans”.  I’m tired of him yelling and screaming when he doesn’t get exactly what he wants or when anyone calls him on his bullshit.

That little girl is not a weapon.  You don’t get to sit there and threaten to not bring her around unless I do exactly what you want whenever you want it.

I’ve already largely cut my father out of my life because I stopped tolerating that kind of behavior.  I don’t want to loose my niece, but if it mean putting up with this shit, I might have to.  I can’t do this again.  I can’t sit here and be manipulated and guilt tripped and constantly told that I’m stupid or useless.

I just hope that little girl doesn’t suffer the way I did.  I don’t know what else to do.  I don’t know how to be strong enough to help her.

I hate being broke.

I mean, I spent my money.  I know where it went.  It went to Field Day for Stephen Kellogg and three Warped Dates so I can see Lostprophets and Twin Atlantic and You Me at Six.

It’s just frustrating that in order to maintain the level of concerts require for relative sanity, I have to pretty much not buy anything else.  I have one Drop Dead clothing tank dress and one Cheer Up racerback tank that I got on super steep clearance, and the Made In Hell hoodie I got years ago when it was still just a few limited press items.  I love them all to death.

I mean, I can’t really complain, because I was able to pull together all of my meager clothing money for a few months and afford the kickass Lostprophets bundle from Fearless with the necklace and all the bells and whistles and such.

It’s more that I’ve been wearing my Cheer Up tank as more or less a security blanket for about three days now, and I really just wish I had more of them.  I get weirdly attached to clothes.  It’s a problem.

I’m just really bad at organizing and prioritizing and anticipating costs.

Can’t go to Marianas Trench either, because my ticket money is toast until after June.  Blaaaah.  Oh well.  They’ll be back eventually.

This is my new sleepytime song.  I just like the melody and it makes me happy and chill.

Still listened to McTrusty singing Walking in Memphis again though.

(Source: Spotify)